today I rambled on about 5 different filofaxes on youtube. I had it planned to make these videos because i received a comment about making one on my Domino so i just did a video on all of them 5 video's. so hope you go buy and check them out. I am still waiting for the upload hope its done some time today.

this week I haven't felt like doing much of anything i believe it to be because i know that the kids will be here with me for 2 weeks for the Christmas break. now having them home for the evenings is one thing but all day! I can already hear the arguments.  I promise not to sleep in late and try and avoid my kids. I promise to not be referee but let them work out there problems. I am taking a break now because I know what I am in for during this break. ohh joy. I must make plans for us so that way it wont be that bad. Have things for them to do and enjoy so they don't beat on each other. wish me luck on this school break. I hope I make it back in one piece. although I miss my babies all day that they are in class, I won't be volunteering that much these last few days. considering this time my pre-vacation vacation. those of you that have kids will understand and those of you who don't well I'm sure i will be wanting to be like you after the new year. lol just kidding. I love my babies not that they are babies but they will be for me for always.

need to start taking pics of my layouts and put them up here but that will be another day.

 Merry Christmas and Happy New years!!! in case i don't write again before then.

I dub thee Bubble..

I dub thee bubble! finally a name for at least one of my Filofaxes. And a worthy name at that.

   I once lived in a bubble where i could see nothing but good in the world though it was all in my imagination it was a happy bubble. some close thought that i needed more in my imaginary life so He decided to point out a few things that i was missing or not seeing in life. boy that was a harsh reality. Did you all already know that life wasn't all about me. well it took me a bit longer to realize it.
   So, this time my bubble isn't just in my head its all out in the open more so in my hands. This is were i connect the two,

my imagination and reality. Yes, if you are a bit weiry well I am too and would tell you to hold on tight. I truly just let it all out here for so many reasons

1. because she is so pretty and you know she is.
2. because i filled her will pretty blank and lined paper that i like to see and feel
3. i let my feeling, questions, quotes that i like and work out my problems
4. this color for me defines freedom for some reason more on that later I'm sure.
5. There are no rules in this Filofax its just write what ever with what ever.

My bubble is a protective barrier against all negativity never to be busted again! This is a place of love that only i can experience and dwell in. I see people through this bubble which allows me to see the good in all. people  try to make me see outside the bubble and at times i may have to but i can always return to my bubble, full of fresh flowing waterfalls where all my ideas, thoughts and opinions are free to flow and gather in a safe pond that is surrounded by lush green grass that i lay down my words and breathe in my inspiration. My tree of grounded strength and shaded comfort flourishes my mind. This is a bug free paradise. Mistakes are not exsistant here. There is only new opportunities to explore, a new way of thinking or new path all together. creation is here and blossoms of ideas.The end does not reside here this is the never ending story.  The infinite where the imagination blossoms and is rejuvinated. the ulimate possibity of inspiration is here.
   I think i have found my muse! it's a place where all beauty and everything is one.  Everything is connected and space is infinate.

My bubble makes me happy and it is concrete. Planning is creat but wee all need a place to feel free and that is what my Filofax personal size finsbury in pink does for me. I hope this wasn't to bumpy of a ride.

Filofax-ing as I see it!!!

   So here is my latest craze. 

FILOFAX

 OMG!!!!!!! so lovely.

My mind is finally free and clear of worries.

WHY?  It seems the more I write my thoughts, moments, schedule,calls, appointments and plans the less mental clutter I have.  The more room I have to just linger in the present.  I tend to not stay focused because ideas come to me when ever they feel like, I have no control of it. my mind seems not wonder so much in conversations as much. not sure why but I think its because I'm finally being able to express myself in my Filofax. I write down the ideas as they come. so it helps me to be able to think and expand on an idea so I'm not always thinking about it. so I can stay more focused in conversations with people express myself  and listen to others as well. hummm, yeah that sounds about right. I have been developing confidence in planning, developing my process, in communicating with my family and getting my ideas out of my mouth instead of being so worried of saying the wrong things.

The feel of a Filofax. mentally and physically. My Dakota Filofax is awesome it is important to get a Planner that you enjoy and are happy with because it is your right hand man or woman, your go to guy or girl. where you store your story and information that you need when you need it. this is my best friend, that helps me be better for my family and be able to be present in the moment instead of thinking of a 101 things all the time and never just enjoying the movie, laughter of your children, or always being late for a birthday gift that you forgot to order because you didn't remember what they said they wanted, because you lost that post-it note you put it on that got lost in the house somewhere. phewww that needed to be said too. oopsies!!!!!! guess this filofax-ing is getting worse, or better, not sure yet.

Tabs are equal to the anatomy.  If things arent exactly the way It's suppose to be then things wont flow right. Its the way It needs to be in order for the process to work for me. I think that every Filofax has its own anatomy it must talk to us over time, together.  Not that i hear voices. yet... At first i believed that it would just come together because the tabs were their and the paper was their but it wasn't so.  it's taken time to get to the point that we can communicate this well. Take time to really understand my needs and so we start to merge into one.  

let my take a moment and tell you a lil story.  During a school day monday morning I set my Dakota down for a brief moment while I did my morning routine. In the middle of this routine checking on the children to make sure they are still getting themselves ready for school I glanced over at my Kota and it wasnt their. I thought that maybe i took it to the kitchen with me so, i let it go for the moment. the 30 minutes before we left i kind of glanced around for it. not thinking anything about it. because I tend to move things around quite a bit. We went about our day when i got home i started to make my breakfast and really lookinf for my Kota. ohhh my here came the panic. Ohh Kota where are you. looking around the house for it. after an hour with cold breakfast waiting for me and a picked up house I finally called husband. "husband, do you know where my Filofax is? ohh my goodness after a few threats to his night life and bad reception on his phone and a lot of denial he finally caved in. My husband thought it would be funny to hide my Dakota this morning. he found out the hard way you don't mess with my Kota. funny now but not then. He got a good laugh me after panic and putting my husband in his place who comes first the Filofax or the husband I was finally able to see the humor once I had it in my hands. I still owe him payback but not sure what yet.... any suggestions??? maybe i should remove the tires on his bike that would get him good. hehehe 

okay back onto the main subject. see focus focus focus.. I crack myself up heehee

my process of Filofax-ing. this has to be the verb of planning in a Filofax because the word planning  doesn't do it justice. the description of what planning in a Filofax does for my well being process. It's an experience, an intimate Date with my Dakota we touch and smells so elegant and i glare at it from across the table ok in front of me. eye candy at the ends of my finger tips, okay i guess that would be finger candy???. this is a sick relationship i have. So when it starts to get a little bulky i help it get slim again. it doesn't get offended by the things I say. It lets me help get it to where we need to be so we can continue in life in perfect harmony. This must be the best relationship I could ever hope for. It takes everything I have to give and doesn't ask for more which makes me want to give more. Post- it notes, new pens, tabs, stickers ohh my.. The adventures we go on we aren't afraid to try new things. we try and if we fail we have the experience that we have shared and continue on to new adventures. we reminisce on what use to be and appreciate where we are now. Kota we have come so far ( sigh).  My husband is jealous of our relationship and asks for time but we cant seem to schedule him in to the right slot yet so we will have to work on accommodating  our time better its only for the weekends maybe some late nights after you have gone to bed. shhhh I know seperation anxiety but its only for a little while then, we can be together again LMAO..... sorry i wondered off again...
did i mention its a sick relationship

hope you caught a glimps of what it means to me to have a relationship with my 1st Filofax. though i have bought a Holborn (possible holly or ??) personal size in brown and love it, I haven't developed the relationship with it quite yet but it'll come. every good thing takes time.. 

Thank you for your time and i hope you enjoyed reading

 until next time.. 

have a blessed day